Is "undateable" a word? it is now.

I've been in 3 long-term relationships, and I don't know why.  I'm not that great of a girlfriend.  In fact, I have compiled a list of 8 reasons why someone wouldn't want to date me, but I'm a cool person, so I added 2 reasons why they would

1.  Compromise is not a thing.

Yada, yada, "the key to a good relationship is compromise".  Sure that sounds all fine and dandy, but listen, if we are going to a movie, we aren't being cheap-o's and skipping the 3-D version.  NOR are we going to pay $12 to see appendages flying through the air in a film that's all gore and no plot.  I don't think I've EVER compromised when it comes to movies.  Also, restaurants.  I don't want to go hungry, so we have to eat somewhere I like.  I'm not a picky eater, but I don't want to go somewhere if I'm not sure what my options are.  BUT keep in mind that I don't want to displease you, or seem difficult.  So I'm not going to choose.  I'm expecting you to choose the one that I want :-) Good luck!

2.  How is a gift card an unacceptable gift?

I always end up buying a gift that I think someone needs.  Or something that I really wish someone would buy for me.  There is never a question as to what someone should get as a present for me, it's one of my Pinterest Boards.  No guessing game required!  Unless you hint at something, have family/friends tell me what you want, or you blatantly instruct me on what to get you, I expect a half smile thank you.  I'm used to the response of, "oh cool, what does it do though?"  It's ok, I'm here to educate.

3.  Roman-ize

If I see a good looking guy, I wonder what it would be like to date him.  I cannot help it.  As much as I try, I just can't!  As bad as it sounds, I get much satisfaction in knowing that a man finds me attractive.  So, I flirt.  I think this is more of a power thing.  I enjoy manipulating someone into thinking that they have a chance with me, and then crush that sliver of hope.  I just may have the characteristics of a Disney villain. hmm.  This has to be unsettling for anyone who dates me.  Considering I have cheated on nearly everyone I've dated, but that comes down to the relationship being long past over and me not having the guts to end it. Live & learn!

4.  Love my friends.

Bottom line.  My friends are awesome.  I don't judge them, they don't judge me.  I talk about them all the time, so if you can't keep their personalities/locations straight, well were you even paying attention??  If you don't love them or vice versa... buh-bye.

5.  Champagne taste on a beer budget.

I have no concept of money.  I overspend.  I bust my budget.  I irrationally rationalize with myself.  I buy expensive things that I need to have.  I can't help it that I'm really into being on top of trends and like to invest in my wardrobe.  However, in my defense, my bills are paid on time.  I simply may need to live with my (or your) parents a little longer than anticipated.

6. I live in a complete fantasy world.

I will never stop chasing my dreams of travelling the world, and making a living doing something I love.  My goals are not unattainable, nor are they ridiculous.  My ultimate career goal is to become a professor and do tons of research.  There is nothing wrong with that.  Although, I also dream of living a very glamorous life.  I believe that both of those goals are more than simply hopes and dreams.  The issue with this for a significant other of mine, is that I refuse to let anything hold me back.  If I need to move, I'm going to pack up and go.  If you want to/can follow me, then that would be lovely.  If not, I'll manage.

7.  I have relationship ADD

I get so bored in a relationship.  In the beginning I'm that girl, who can't get enough of their boyfriend.  Flash to a year later, and as he leans in to kiss me, I turn and give him the cheek.  This also adds to my infidelity.  I'm always looking for something new and fun to do.  I was once in a very long relationship, and it got to the point where I simply wasn't attracted to them as a partner anymore.  Not that I didn't think they weren't good looking, I just had no desire to be intimate with them.  This has happened with every long relationship I've been in to date.  Which worries me.

8.  Me. Me. Me. Me. ME!

If you couldn't tell, I'm extremely selfish.  If things don't go my way, get out of my way or face the consequences.  Right now, I'm thinking the only reason I want to get married is to throw an awesome party for myself where my friends feel obligated to attend.  Unlike a 27th birthday party which is ridiculous to fly across the country to attend.  I want what I want, and I want it now.  I want to spend my money on me.  I want to have to fun.  I want to enjoy life.  My way.

Well now that you think I'm a horrible person, Here are 2 reason why I am completely date-able:

1.  I am generous.

Although I buy horrible gifts, and they aren't what you had in mind, sometimes, I really get it right.  While I'm depleting my bank account on ridiculous, expensive clothes that I absolutely need in order to function, I'm also stumbling upon something for you too.  While I may not be thrilled about doing something that I don't want to.  I also am a huge people-pleaser, so I won't complain.

2.  I am enthusiastic about life

As I stated earlier, I have huge hopes and dreams, which in some cases is a downfall, however, it's also a bonus!  I love to travel and experience new things!  I may not be a huge thrill seeker, but I'll watch a thrill.  I live every moment to the fullest and take every opportunity handed.

This leads me to my current relationship.  I began writing this because we are about to come up on our 1 year anniversary (go ahead, roll your eyes).  In the beginning of this relationship I can attest to informing my boyfriend, numerous times, "I'm a very difficult person to date, are you sure about this?"  I just wanted to let him know what he was getting into.  Fortunately for me, we share enough similarities, and differences that our relationship is absolute balance.  I'm kind of baffled by the whole thing.  At this point in my other relationships, I was bored.  I think it's the sense of adventure that we both share enables us to keep things fun by taking in new experiences together.  I'm up for this adventure!